AN INFLUENCE OF A SONG

This is not the way it should end it's the way it should begin, it's the way it should begin again now.. I never wanna fall apart never wanna break your heart never wanna let you break my own..

This song can makes me remember something.. yes about how I could and how I couldn't receive everything that given to me..
and sometimes I feel so worry when I face more than two situation that I should choose one of them and I also confused when I was thinking how to make all things related to those who refused would never feel hurt..especially something bout love..

I actually include people who always think to prevent something. yes, including avoiding the old feelings that are not ready to share with a new one...

I always thinking about some stories of my life. When I was getting a same happiness things with my old stories yeah I just accept it without any complain. But, when I was getting the sadness for the first time, I don't know why I always afraid to try to do that again...hmmm yaah I don't wanna get it anymore...
But, not at all... I always wanna try the second's chance if I have thought all about benefit and what are the results if I did and if I didn't to...

hmmm... but,actually, the most difficult thing is to make a decision about love.. of course,when I have not forgotten someone yet but there's someone comes to me...
everything feels wrong... I wanna get the new one to help me to forget previous feeling, but in other side I couldn't forget it...

I'm afraid...I'm afraid to face the new story ... keeping my previous feeling till now is a hardest thing I ever did..
so that, I also have other hardest thing, that is to forget it.. it's so long..

I'm so sorry to avoiding you..
and I'm sorry too to giving meaningless words to you
I'm so sorry...

I just wanna give a limit of all...
not only in love, but also in another part..